Writing

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I'm feeling them again, I don't understand

Disappointment? Sadness? Anxiety? 

They come all at once.

Should I cry? Should I scream? or

 wait 'til they disappear?

Wait, no. I'll let them all out.

I found myself typing words again

Instead of studying my lessons.

My head hurts, my always excuse.

My head hurts from overthinking

This day was okay, yet something still

 feels missing.

Did I do something wrong?

Am I gonna fail my finals?

What if the guy I was talking to thinks

 I was flirting with him? Ofc not!

Is this degree I'm taking really for me?

Random questions, one after the other.

Papa, Mama, I'm so tired of thinking.

I'm sorry to feel this way, I wanna be strong

But I can't help feeling vulnerable.

These questions won't leave me alone.

I still couldn't fathom why.

My grandma's financially able,

But I still don't feel fly

Now, I just miss my old life.

Enough, I gotta wake up

No more daydreaming, Reality's waiting

I'll just start writing all over again,

When the feelings come back,
 when they all come back.