GOALS

 

I was scrolling Facebook when I came across a friend's post. It was about the poster presentation she presented in Las Vegas at Mid Year. She's just a P3 but she already knows what she wants. I envy her. 

This is one of the reasons I wanted to deactivate all my social media accounts forever because I would just end up comparing my miserable life with theirs. The second point is, I've been miserable for quite a long time because instead of doing something about it, I just dwell on how miserable I am and never really did proactively something about it. I should have set my goals early on so the moment I entered pharmacy school, I have already worked my way there. 

I have to be honest, I am jealous, I am miserable and I am scared. I am scared that it might be too late for me to get out of this miserable situation. If given a new opportunity to live a new life in a new city just on my own, I will:

• Work my way to be the best amb care/oncology pharmacist I can be God-willing
• Live way below my means so I can save money for my family and for future goals e.g. house, business
• Invest so I can make my money grow
• Intentionally make time every week to serve the community, especially the kids who need help or the elderly
• Learn something new everyday so I can grow everyday
• Invest learning a language and speaking it fluently
• Invest in learning guitar/ukulele

I WILL BECOME THE BEST VERSION OF MYSELF, FAR FROM THIS JESSA WHO IS ALWAYS DEPRESSED AND MISERABLE.

P.S

Lord, please help me get matched with a wonderful residency program that aligns with my values and goals in life. Please help me get to where you wanted me to be and as hard as it may be, help me to accept the fate you want for me, even if that means the probability of not matching with any program.